hello. selvyn, indra, mumtaj and prema vasam.
i have not cried yet. what is wrong with me?
i miss you, i do, i promise.  
my bones ache, even.
today i was walking to work and there was a small shop. it looked as if the items it sold were from india; so i went inside.
they were.
i did not really need anything. but i went in, because at this time, it is the closest i have to coming back to you.
i said hello to the couple behind the counter and i told them i had spent three months in chennai. they asked me doing what, so i told them.

they gave me a gold bangle as a gift for doing a good deed.

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and i could not even cry.